In the year 2020 I lost everything I thought I had. I had just came out of years of being sick with Lyme disease and I still wasn't feeling my best but despite that I was trying to build my life but kept feeling lost in all of it. I didn't understand who I was and why things were the way they were. I just wanted to know. While I kept asking the universe for answers I opened up a path to what I was asking for. Who am I and what the hell am I doing here? How am I supposed to live this life? Naturally everything that was not in resonance with these questions and intention behind it, began falling away. Harsh truths about the people in my life were revealed. First covid hit, then I lost my job, my relationship, one of my pets died, all within a few weeks. Basically everything started to crumble down. Everything that was so dearly to me. I went through a really dark period of my life. Again. After years of being sick and getting treatment for the Lyme disease, I felt like it was all too much and I couldn't take any more of it. I wanted out. 

But I knew I didn't want to leave this earth in more pain. I felt deep down that I had to stay. Because I knew my purpose. And that was to help heal other people, by healing myself first. To be of service. To Anyone that is suffering. Because I know many people are. 

I felt so powerless and out of control. I had no control over my emotions and thoughts and because of that absolutely no control over my reality. I could barely eat, sleep, I was even taking a lot of medication to be able to sleep for a few hours. The pain inside was so bad. I had to really hit rock bottom to get to where I am today. I had to lose everything so that I could start from scratch again. Which was a really scary place to be. It was a gap between who I was and who I was becoming. It felt like this empty void. But it was the path to which the universe led me to find myself. To get an answer on those questions I kept asking. I had no other choice but to take that path and not lose courage to keep going. 

So the next weeks and months I spent on the couch, looking for answers on the internet. I came across Abraham Hicks who completely changed my outlook on life. I was listening to her non stop everyday. At home, in the car, in the shower. I could feel everything she said on a very deep level. I read book after book after book after book on self development. I stared a course in hypnoses with Marisa Peer, I went to boxing therapy every week, I went to a psychologist every week, did drama therapy and most important, I started meditating with Joe Dispenza every day for more than an hour and diving into all his knowledge. Abraham Hicks and Joe Dispenza both saved my life. I can't say it any other way. I'm so gratefull for both of them. Because of them I started to see a future again. I started a training in NLP (Neuro Linguistic Programming) to educate myself in psychology, communicating, the subconscious mind, behaviours and brain patterns and to become a life coach. I was in this ongoing journey to learn more about myself and life. 

I had to ask myself, what is that I want in this life and what would make me actually happy? What if all of the things that I want in life could become true. So that's what I started to create and together with doing the work of Joe Dispenza, I slowly started to create my new life and self. Not just my future. I started to create the person I really wanted to be. My mindset shifted tremendously, I lost 15 pounds and felt more free and positive than ever. It's not that I don't have any hard moments any more it's just that I made a choice. To stay positive no matter what. And I know that in that way I am starting to manifest the life and future that I desire.